never-ending cycle

It's a vicious circle by Jakob Nihlwing

regular expressions

me, learning programming languages.
comic by xkcd

reminder

7 Steps for Maintaining Motivation

1. Grasp that it’s YOUR life, and no-one else’s life.

2. Decide to “live on purpose”.

3. Recognise that achievement has a price tag attached to it – and decide you’ll pay that price.

4. Work on constantly maintaining your focus.

5. Chose a skill or a field and become competent, or an expert, in that area.

6. Find other people who will hold you to your goals – and will believe in, and encourage you, to strive to reach your dreams.

7. Consciously notice the progress you are making, and remind yourself “it’s worth it” as you’re further on the path.

ultimately unknowable

I learned not to trust people; I learned not to believe what they say but to watch what they do; I learned to suspect that anyone and everyone is capable of 'living a lie'. I came to believe that other people - even when you think you know them well - are ultimately unknowable.

Lynn Barber

With it or despite it

I’m not suffering from depression. I’m living with it. We’re passive aggressive, odd couple roommates.

I want to live in a clean, organized home and my depression wants to live in an actual dumpster. I want to cook a healthy meal but my depression has already ordered in. I want to get up early and face the day, but my depression always hits the snooze button.

But the thing is? We’re still together. And sometimes I can drag my depression off the couch and we clean the bathroom. Sometimes we bake cookies together and then eat them while we watch netflix. Sometimes I leave my depression at home and go out for a night with my friends.

The key part of living with depression is living. With it or despite it.

(via)

introversion as strength

I have such a strong inner life that I’m never bored and only occasionally lonely. No matter what mayhem is happening around me, I know I can always turn inward.

The Power of Introverts, Susan Cain

twit

para quem gosta de ver timelapses de malta a desenhar tanto como eu, fica aqui o vídeo com o processo desta ilustração. no vídeo não se percebe, mas posso dizer que eu estava em agonia a desenhar o cabelo (é o meu ponto fraco).

stagnation

people who doubt themselves too much end up engaging in excessive information processing which leads to procrastination and self-handicapping.
self-doubters are also more likely to suffer from depression and social anxiety. some soul-searching and self-analysis can be useful, but too much is a recipe for stagnation.

my life summed up in two paragraphs

twit

a praticar skin retouching enquanto actualizo o portefólio no Indústria Criativa

lacking

I lack the peace of simple things.


by Wendell Berry

update

diz que andei a actualizar um dos desenhos que tenho à venda no society6, e a terminar outro de que falava aqui.


agora sim, diria que se parece com a Delevingne...


quanto a este já o meti e tirei da loja umas 3 vezes porque nunca estou satisfeita com o contraste, quando em comparação com os outros. já não sei se é este que está claro demais ou os outros que estão escuros de mais.

far far away

It's strange, the way a person's life can feel so far away,
Although the claims of its existence are encountered everywhere

John Koethe

The 3 P’s

Perfectionism, procrastination, and paralysis – one often leads to the next, in a vicious cycle, especially on large, long-term projects with no clear deadlines.

The procrastination and paralysis that result from overly high standards causes the perfectionist to wait until it's too late, then rush to do something; anything.

This sums up my life as an artist.

layer upon layer

She'd wrapped layer upon layer of solitude around herself to protect her from a gaze, yet she wasn't exactly sure whose. If she was really honest with herself, she knew it was her own eyes watching her, but she nevertheless kept wrapping that solitude around her; there was nothing else to do.

To Mervas, Elisabeth Rynell

update

working on a new drawing for my Society6. that damn shop looks so sad and lonely, i need to do something about it.

on perfectionism

when asked if he was a perfectionist (here), Ólafur Arnalds replied:

I am, but I don't want to be. I can't deny that I am, but perfection is not necessarily a good thing. And I try to avoid it. I try to work with spontaneity, and just capturing a moment. I find that much more interesting than to work for weeks on something and making it absolutely perfect with no mistakes because… where's the humanity in that? We're not perfect, so why should our music be? All these mistakes that we make, that's where you get the real music actually.

I reeeeaalllyy want to be more like this with my art. I shall work on that!

update

O Fred, da banda de folk psicadélico 17f, gostou o suficiente da minha interpretação da música Waiting para a partilhar no youtube, ainda que esta esteja incompleta.

Acontece que há 2 anos atrás eu fiz um videoclipe para a banda, e na dúvida entre 2 músicas acabei por fazer 2 versões, uma que completei e partilhei aqui, e esta que ele decidiu partilhar agora.

twit

i was feeling pretty the other day

twit

how much would i have to pay someone by the hour to cuddle me in bed?
i just need you to hold me tightly in your arms, while i cry endlessly. preferably without your judgement, and in complete silence.

this. is. so. relevant.

10 Things You Should Never Say To A Depressed Person

people don't seem to understand how depression is not a choice.

There is no point treating a depressed person as though she were just feeling sad, saying, there now, hang on, you’ll get over it.
Sadness is more or less like a head cold- with patience, it passes.
Depression is like cancer.

plus (notice that from here on this is just my personal experience) if I am to share with someone I suffer from depression it means I care about that person and I want our friendship to last, and so I need that person to understand my condition and where my "moods" come from, it's not just me giving excuses. because when you care about someone you try to help them, right? but how can you help if you simple ignore their sickness and just treat it like its just some phase. well it's not.
so please, if you actually bothered to read this and you know someone with depression follow that link up there and go inform yourself. this shit is serious and is everywhere, it's like a plague.