look and try to find the truth

In 1989, I first saw a John Cassavetes movie and it stunned me because I didn't know who this guy was and it changed my life. It really did. Shadows, Opening Night… all those movies about trying to find something and not knowing what you're looking for. And, I wanna dedicate this not just to John Cassavetes but also to Solomon Northup who inspired me to look and try to find the truth in whatever we try to find it in.

Steve McQueen accepts Best Director at the 2014 Film Independent Spirit Awards (via)

like a wastebasket full of waste paper, bits of hair, and rotting apple cores

I am feeling depressed from being exposed to so many lives, so many of them exciting, new to my realm of experience. I pass by people, grazing them on the edges, and it bothers me. I've got to admire someone to really like them deeply - to value them as friends. It was that way with Ann: I admired her wit, her riding, her vivacious imagination - all the things that made her the way she was. I could lean on her as she leaned on me. Together the two of us could face anything - only not quite anything, or she would be back. And so she is gone, and I am bereft for awhile. But what do I know of sorrow?


The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath, Sylvia Plath

I would like to make my films about disappearing

This subject is important to me because society changes so fast and everything disappears so fast - historical sites, culture. (...) People in their forties have no way of finding traces of their childhood. Modern people are afraid of disappearance. Living in Taipei, for example, we constantly have to deal with compelling visual change. We ask the question: what do you love the most? Who do you love the most? You will lose them - it will happen in modern society. My films ask the question: how we can face the disappearance? The loss?


Tsai Ming-Liang (via)

You exist, and therefore, you matter.

Your worth isn't contingent upon other people's acceptance of you — it's something inherent. You exist, and therefore, you matter. You're allowed to voice your thoughts and feelings. You're allowed to assert your needs and take up space. You're allowed to hold onto the truth that who you are is exactly enough. And you’re allowed to remove anyone from your life who makes you feel otherwise.

by Daniell Koepke

listening to this song the whole afternoon

and shouting, WE ARE THE
SAVIOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOORS

you learn

After a while you learn
the subtle difference between
holding a hand and chaining a soul
and you learn
that love doesn't mean leaning
and company doesn't always mean security.
And you begin to learn
that kisses aren't contracts
and presents aren't promises
and you begin to accept your defeats
with your head up and your eyes ahead
with the grace of woman,
not the grief of a child
and you learn
to build all your roads on today
because tomorrow's ground is
too uncertain for plans
and futures have a way of falling down
in mid-flight.
After a while you learn
that even sunshine burns
if you get too much
so you plant your own garden
and decorate your own soul
instead of waiting for someone
to bring you flowers.
And you learn that you really can endure
you really are strong
you really do have worth
and you learn
and you learn
with every goodbye, you learn...


After A While, Veronica A. Shoffstall (via)

Waste it again and again and again

Sometimes I can't believe it
I'm movin' past the feeling again

I will always scare

I cannot say I feel serene and happy. Happiness only in a sense, and never serenity,
because I will always scare; and more than anyone else - myself.

Letters To Milena, Franz Kafka