What you know doesn’t matter. What you do does.

every damn day

every damn day i'm wresting with my thoughts
every damn day i fake a smile and hope i don't get caught

permission to be happy

When you fall in love with the process rather than the product, you don’t have to wait to give yourself permission to be happy. You can be satisfied anytime your system is running.

Atomic Habits by James Clear

set my heart to be broken again

I've learned by now
That my strength has been forged
In the fire of pain

limited knowledge

Knowledge is the thing that makes the existence of resources infinite. The creation of knowledge is unbounded. We’re going to keep on creating more knowledge and, thereby, learning about more and different resources.

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Even so-called empty space has a lot of matter and a lot of things that could be converted into energy. There is no limit to the number of resources out there. There’s purely a limit to knowledge.

from Knowledge Makes the Existence of Resources Infinite

for warmth

I hold my face between my hands.
No, I am not crying.
I hold my face between my hands
to keep my loneliness warm —
two hands protecting,
two hands nourishing,
two hands to prevent
my soul from leaving me
in anger.

For Warmth by Thich Nhat Hanh

it burns away

Love is kind of like when you see a fog in the morning, when you wake up before the sun comes out. It’s just a little while, and then it burns away… Love is a fog that burns with the first daylight of reality.

prototype

polyghost

when i first heard this song i had to completely stop what i was doing and close my eyes
i kind of just wanted to... evaporate? like i was ready to fade out of existence

for a script

Women are bornt with pain built in

i binge-watched this show called Fleabag some weeks ago, which means a lot in itself, because i'm not the kind to binge-watch anything, and there was this speech that will forever live in my head rent free.

 

Women are bornt with pain built in.

It's our physical destiny: period pains, sore boobs, childbirth, you know. We carry it within ourselves throughout our lives, men don't.

They have to seek it out, they invent all these gods and demons and things just so they can feel guilty about things, which is something we do very well on our own. And then they create wars so they can feel things and touch each other and when there aren't any wars they can play rugby.

We have it all going on in here inside, we have pain on a cycle for years and years and years and then just when you feel you are making peace with it all, what happens? The menopause comes, the fucking menopause comes, and it is the most wonderful fucking thing in the world.

And yes, your entire pelvic floor crumbles and you get fucking hot and no one cares, but then you're free, no longer a slave, no longer a machine with parts. You're just a person.