Mantra

Vitamin D. Sunlight. Go
outside. Get a good night
of sleep. Not too good.

Not shades drawn forever
good. Not like you used to.

Open the windows.

Buy more houseplants.
Breathe. Meditate. (One day,

you will no longer be

afraid of being alone
with your thoughts.)

Exercise. Actually exercise

instead of just googling it.
Eat well. Cook for yourself.

Organize your closet, the

garage. Drink plenty of water
and repeat after me:

I am not a problem

to be solved. Repeat after me:
I am worthy I am worthy I am

neither the mistake nor

the punishment. Forget to take
vitamins. Let the houseplant die.

Eat spoonfuls of peanut butter.

Shave your head. Forget
this poem. It doesn’t matter—

there is no wrong way

to remember the grace of your
own body; no choice

that can unmake itself.

There is only now, here,
look: you are already

forgiven.




Mantra to Overcome Depression, Sierra DeMulder

this. is. so. relevant.

10 Things You Should Never Say To A Depressed Person

people don't seem to understand how depression is not a choice.

There is no point treating a depressed person as though she were just feeling sad, saying, there now, hang on, you’ll get over it.
Sadness is more or less like a head cold- with patience, it passes.
Depression is like cancer.

plus (notice that from here on this is just my personal experience) if I am to share with someone I suffer from depression it means I care about that person and I want our friendship to last, and so I need that person to understand my condition and where my "moods" come from, it's not just me giving excuses. because when you care about someone you try to help them, right? but how can you help if you simple ignore their sickness and just treat it like its just some phase. well it's not.
so please, if you actually bothered to read this and you know someone with depression follow that link up there and go inform yourself. this shit is serious and is everywhere, it's like a plague.

Cleaning Pieces

CLEANING PIECE I

Write down a sad memory.
Put it in a box.
Burn the box and sprinkle the ashes in the field.
You may give some ashes
to a friend who shared the sadness.

CLEANING PIECE II

Make a numbered list of sadness in your life.
Pile up stones corresponding to those numbers.
Add a stone, each time there is sadness.
Burn the list, and appreciate the mount of stones for its beauty.

Make a numbered list of happiness in your life.
Pile up stones corresponding to those numbers.
Add a stone, each time there is happiness.
Compare the mount of stones to the one of sadness.

CLEANING PIECE III

Try to say nothing negative about anybody.
a) for three days
b) for forty-five days
c) for three months

See what happens to your life.

CLEANING PIECE IV

Write down everything you fear in life.
Burn it.
Pour herbal oil with a sweet scent on the ashes.

CLEANING PIECE V

Let a list of arbitrary names come into your mind as you go to sleep.
Say “bless you” after each name.
Do this with speed, by keeping a constant rhythm,
so, in no way, you would hesitate to bless them.




Yoko Ono

fear

Holding people away from you, and denying yourself love, that doesn't make you strong. If anything, it makes you weaker. Because you're doing it out of fear.

Sarah Dessen


sometimes I get the feeling that tumblr is trying to tell me something, judging by the things that show on my dashboard. sneaky.

The Darkest Truth About Love

I'm not sure how I feel about this.
I love the animation, I agree with some points, but I'm not sure about the direction it took.

relearning to love my self

for quite some time I've been having this weird feeling when I look at myself in the mirror, like I'm looking from the outside, like I don't belong to this body, to this realm. I can't shake the feeling of being disconnected from everything and everyone. so for the last couple of days I've been trying to feel a little more in contact with my own body, trying to feel my own weight (as Bill Murray would say). in the process I decided to post a video of myself at tumblr, and now I'm sharing a still image here as some sort of dedication to myself, and also as an attempt to make this blog a little more personal.

note to self

I must change my life so that I can live it,
not wait for it.

Susan Sontag

true detective

starring Colin Farrell, Vince Vaughn and Rachel McAdams.
season 2, I'm ready for ya.

numb

You can spend years numbing yourself out, your fear of being hurt, rejected, even loved...but you can never numb the loneliness you traded for it.

(via)

lost

i want to stay.
i want to leave.
i am three oceans away from my soul.


salt., Nayyirah Waheed

long hold

looping this for the entire day

meaning

And people get all fouled up because they want the world to have meaning as if it were words... As if you had a meaning, as if you were a mere word, as if you were something that could be looked up in a dictionary. You are meaning.

Alan W. Watts

helplessness

The tiredness of this generation is something so much deeper than a lack of sleep; there is helplessness in the air and we confuse it for oxygen.

Michael Lottner