relearning to love my self

for quite some time I've been having this weird feeling when I look at myself in the mirror, like I'm looking from the outside, like I don't belong to this body, to this realm. I can't shake the feeling of being disconnected from everything and everyone. so for the last couple of days I've been trying to feel a little more in contact with my own body, trying to feel my own weight (as Bill Murray would say). in the process I decided to post a video of myself at tumblr, and now I'm sharing a still image here as some sort of dedication to myself, and also as an attempt to make this blog a little more personal.